Okay, I didn't expect that coming ...

MMy last post was my first blog post ever. I usually write more privately in an art journal.  But recently I have been reading post from others that I have found helpful and insightful.  So I decided to write in a more public place. See about feedback. 

The first feedback I got, I wasn't surprised by. It was my mother, telling me I write really well and should do this more often. She has always been supportive so no surprises there. But she also told me she could feel the pain in my words and it brought tears to her eyes. That I was surprised by.  Not that my pain upset her, but that my words could convey such depth of feelings.  But ok, it's still my own mother. 

The next person I heard from was my boyfriend. Now his reaction floored me. He was angry at me, for what I wrote.  Not the situation but me.  He feels as though I am blaming him for all my problems in life and that I hold him responsible for my severe depression. 

Now I'm good at reading signs that aren't there, but wow. Was that far fetched.  After some thought about it I realized maybe he was more mad that he didn't think he had a place in my new life. Or was refusing to move out of state without knowing what I wanted.  

But that does sort of sum up our relationship. We don't communicate well (he hates to talk. and I'm a yapper)  so we both assume a lot.  Surprisingly enough we are both often wrong in our assumptions. And he makes all his important decisions without any discussions and informs me once they are set in stone.  

I on the other hand want to discuss everything. I am often told I over discuss and over think everything.