The wondering what he is doing and who is he with will start to make me crazy. The jeluousy. I won't know if he's off with another girl, playing paint ball or staying up all nite with shaughn
Then there's the tricky part when doses he come over ? Weekends only to keep kids out of itb? Do I let him stay involved with the kids ? Minimize there contact ?
Probably. No family movies and out dinner all of us. Too weird now. His responsibility to help keep it clean will be gone. No reason for him to help with Ella. Trash or laundry. He is now a guest once in a while.
I get y he wants it. But is going to be hard on me. I will need to do more. Step up and take care of it. At same time I think I often don't in hopes he will help and once it's expected of him he stops.
I really need to get depression as well as feet under control so I can do more for myself.
Other Han not loosing all adult contact I'm not sure what the point of keeping the relationship going is. He still won't be there for me emotionally. No holding or hugging. No dating. He works till midnite unless school nite.
No more trips. Family trips. It's like getting divorced byes I'll see him but we see no longer a family. Wow. Still amazed. This is all so he doesn't have to admit his actions have a consequence. And influence on me and my kids. So he can walk away instead of listening not get pushed into talking. Lol
Jokes on him. He is always on phone and ignores me. Why would I want to hang out with that ?
Sigh. I guess ending it slowly is all that it's really about. Ok no cold turkey.
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